Today, I had an unexpected visitor.
Though she was not unwelcome she was very late, like a WHOLE month late.
Today was the 61st day since the beginning of my last menstrual cycle. In this life thus far my menstruation has always been irregular. I was diagnosed with PCOS in my early 20’s. I am not sure my body cares for being regular at anything; even my labor pains were never consistent. Since we’re laying it all out on the table, my attention span sure isn’t either.
While it’s usually a surprise when my Moon Time appears, I now love to honor it’s arrival. I actually look forward to it.
What you say? What crazy lady looks forward to bleeding?
But you see, it’s my time.
I try my HARDEST to take the first 24 hours off. That’s right, I reschedule my client appointments, put hubby and son on alert. I don’t cook, clean, or work unless there is NO way out. Usually I find as priories go I can make it happen. I have a date with my hot water bottle (okay fine, I have more than one hot water bottle so I am not exclusive), some warm Moon Time tea and my bed. I read books and do some journaling. Really it’s just ME TIME where I can feel whatever it is I am feeling and make peace with it.
Really, trying to act like nothing is going on and not honoring my natural cycles actually makes the rest of my month LESS productive and fulfilling. If I don’t rest on my first day, then the rest of my week will not be so pleasant. Tami Kent in Wild Feminine says it well. “ One way to honor the female body as sacred is to match the pace of your life to the rhythmic cycle of the womb.”
The nesting, closing in and enveloping into the darkness of my feminine side really gives me insight and strength to be more authentic and nurturing with myself and others throughout my entire cycle. As much as getting to go to a red tent and get away from it all during my moon time would be amazing, it’s not realistic. So I make my own red tent through small intentions and rituals that help me stay present.
I am inspired by this insight from Christiane Northrup, M.D. in Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom. “I began to look forward to my periods, understanding them to be a sacred time… the things that made me feel teary were the things that were the most important to me, things that I know tuned me in to my power and deepest thoughts. My increased sensitivity felt like a gift of insight. I didn’t become angry, though if I did, I knew to pay attention and not chalk it up to “my stupid hormones”.
Now if I ‘snap’ or get angry with my husband or anyone during this time, I don’t apologize for my feelings but only how the message was delivered. My time before my menstruation and about two days during are my most unmasked and raw times. If I allow myself to sit with it and not fear the truth my body is telling me, it can be truly transformational.
I have vivid dreams the night before and during my beginning menses that can be quite telling and introspective of what my unconscious mind is dealing with. I often get clear messages on things that are no longer serving me in my life. Hopefully I will continue to develop the courage to release these things when that message is clear. The releasing of the nourishment for a child that did not come to be from in my womb can also coax the release of other beliefs, and systems I have set up in my life. These beliefs might once have been needed but are no longer adding value. Creating space and clearing, can open up you up for new and creative solutions. The answers and resources are within all you and they're within me.
Acting on the knowledge I gain is not necessary to do right now. I will rest some more. Let the knowledge settle in my mind and journal and the correct and tactful steps will be clear for me to take in the future.
Simply acknowledging that to be balanced and in-tune to ourselves, we must make time for action and reflection. This is our natural gift of reflection and release. I feel blessed to have this gift.
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I would love to know how you honor your cycle or would like to honor your cycle? How can you create a “red tent” during your moon time?
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